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As Promised…

Yep so here I am again. Not to apologise for not writing this time. This time I’m here to tell you what has been going on in the life of Tabby (the bumbling, mostly useless, teenage girl).

So let’s start with September…
– I started year eleven
– I started mentoring in drama on Saturdays which means I spend 8 hours in a drama studio on a Saturday which I love.
– I found I get to be DSM (deputy stage manager) for a production full of small children which means I call cues and curtains and lights and songs and run the show from the wings
– I started rehearsals for pantomime and also the Shakespeare Schools Festival
– I took a lot of selfies

October
– I went to a campout (details to follow in separate blog post containing a hypothetical cockerel called Trevor)
– I got very very drunk
– I got very very very drunk
– My default greeting is now “BONJOUR!” in a thick yorkshire accent
– I now say merci instead of thanks

November
– I slowly started turning french
– I went to bonfire night with a massive group of friends which was awesome
– I went on a trip to Whitby for coursework and had fish and chips in a restaurant and pretended to be civilised
– I went to a party and fell over a lot
– I woke up with a lot of bruises and had no idea why I had them
– I ate a lot of pizza
– I performed in the Shakespeare Schools Festival (our school won) I got to eat haribos on stage and be mean to the audience and look really sassy which was fun
– I made up a badass handshake with my pantomime friend

December
– Pantomime starts
– I destain myself from punching several small children
– I took a lot of selfies in a cat costume
– I took a lot of selfies in a 50’s costume
– I had a social gathering for avid lovers of pizza and nachos
– I took my dog for a walk at midnight and saw a drunk man lying on the ground
– I saw another drunk man trying to walk straight
– I laughed
– CHRISTMAS!!!!
– Trip to Ikea whilst wearing a mushroom hat
– Took more selfies
– NEW YEAR!!!!

January
– Started wearing hats
– Took a picture of an adorable small child wearing my hat
– Went to a party and had jelly shots which i think are simply the best idea in the world
– Planned for my birthday party

It’s my birthday on Friday and I’m having a house party and I’m really excited but kind of scared at the same time… But mainly excited!

I also didn’t mention but I had my mock exams through November and December whilst only being in school 3 days a week due to performing… Which was interesting…
I’m happy with my results though. I did much better than I expected.

I hope you all have a lovely rest of the week and until I next see you,

Goodbye

Tabby

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So…

Long time no see…
I’m not really sure what to say…

I haven’t been here in a while. It feels weird to be sat at my desk again typing and hoping that maybe someone finds me interesting enough to read whatever drivel spills out of my messy brain.

Let’s start with why I stopped blogging:
Basically I didn’t have the time. I stopped watching youtube and all the things i used to do purely because I didn’t have the time. I started pantomime rehearsals, I swapped friend groups and started going to parties and stuff and exam stress set in and I found it hard to make time for this any more.
With blogging however, it was always a little more. It was important for me. It was helpful. This site is like a support network and writing was a release. There were people here who were in the same position as me and it was nice to talk to them. And I have missed that. I have also missed writing. I stopped because I didn’t feel I was any good at it. In school I didn’t like English so I thought I was a useless writer. I also didn’t need the release so much anymore. I started to get better. I pulled myself up. I got more confident and for a while I had to be selfish and focus on me. It was a delicate time. I knew how easy it would be for me to fall back and lose my confidence and I had to change what I surrounded myself with. No YouTube no WordPress. I had to force myself to go outside.

Now let’s do why I’m back:
Quite simply because I enjoy being here (virtually). Recently I’ve been getting a lot of comments on how much people have enjoyed my last few posts (specifically the running one – yes I get it, we like to laugh at my expense, I’m hilarious, I’m north yorkshire’s answer to Miranda) and that’s kind of encouraged me to pursue my writing – thank you kind people for your encouraging words on how funny it is when I make a fool of myself in public. Also, in my mock exams I did really well in English. Really well, and I was really fucking proud, because I thought it was like my second weakest subject. I’ve kind of got to the point where I don’t really give a shit about what people have to say about me. I used to care so much when the “popular” girls took the piss out of me for having a blog and I used to let it get to me. Now, with only 4 months left at school with those bitches I don’t care what they say because I know whatever I set my mind to, I will succeed. And to quote Taylor Swift “I’m just gonna shake it off”

Mint. Covered the necessary. Be back soon to update y’all on the recent occurrences in my life because right now I’m sat in the pitch black of my room, only illuminated by my laptop screen when I should really be asleep…

I’m praying this snow will lay and get thicker so I don’t have to go into school tomorrow and explain to my English teacher who hates my guts why I haven’t done her homework that was due in today and tell my maths teacher that I didn’t do her homework because she set it yesterday, I didn’t have the desire nor the time to do it, and that the main reason I haven’t done it is because she’s an incompetent fool who I don’t have the time of day for.

Goodbye
Tabby

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Strasbourg Photos!!!!!

IMG_0116 This is 3am at a service station…. And by some miracle we don’t look like zombies

IMG_0010 When we got to Dover I got excited about the ferry (I love water) so I took a selfie

IMG_0012 Left to right this is Ashley, Gabi, Beth, Me and Kaitlyn at a Buffalo Grill in France at a service station while everyone else ditched us to go to Burger King. We even managed to order in french (badly… but I still managed to ask the waitress to leave out the onions!)

IMG_0133 Me and Ashley were not too enamoured with the food at the youth hostel…

IMG_0160 We climbed 330 steps to the top of the cathedral in Strasbourg and the view was awesome

IMG_0052 This is me, Kaitlyn and Gabi before we went in the spa and ohmigosh it was heavenly….. until Gabi forgot her locker number and lost her clothes…..

IMG_0053 Peter’s selfie face is better than yours…. This is in Baden Baden near the spa

IMG_0060 This is the European Parliament where the tour guide caused me, 2 other students and a teacher to actually fall asleep…

IMG_0179 This is some random blossom tree we found after eating ‘lunch’

IMG_0114 This is near said tree…

IMG_0067 This is near this weird building where cranes live on the roof  (the bird not machine….)

IMG_0081 This is what I MUST drink when I am in France

IMG_0001 This is a vase I made for my Dad’s birthday at a glass blowing museum

IMG_0094 This is a random horse at the Gutach open air museum that we took selfies with

IMG_0108 This is the group of people I went with in front of a big-ass waterfall

IMG_0110 This is a giant pretzel that I ate and enjoyed….. damn right I enjoyed it, I payed €1,10 for that!

 

Anyway thats just a few of the pictures I took whilst in Strasbourg….. Im sorry if this post bored you but for me this trip really changed me (I know this sounds stupid but hear me out)…. So my best friend (lets call her X) didn’t get to go because her passport never arrived on time. Now there was a lot of shit that went with this and I used to feel dependant on X (I’m not really that self-assured) so I was a bit worried about going alone… And then X kind of started getting bitchy when I tried to comfort her and I was like well what the fuck this is hardly fair! The one time I actually get something and you don’t! Well fuck it! I’m gonna enjoy myself!

Now let me explain…..

X’s family are a lot richer than mine so she gets a lot more than me. I am by no means complaining because I am perfectly happy with my life but what I mean is that I am never allowed to be jealous of her but the minute I get something that she doesn’t, she kicks up this huge fuss like she’s so hard done by. It’s like she has to have more than me to feel… well I don’t know!

Before secondary school, I was a really outgoing but through secondary school I have gotten more introverted and developed social anxiety. I have low self esteem and hate going outside. My mum kind of had suspicions that X had influenced this a little because X is not too sociable and is also introverted.

It was good for me to get away without X because I could have experiences with some of my other friends like Gabi and Kaitlyn who go to parties, are in the ‘popular’ group and whose weekends actually involve doing stuff with people! Now X, when we were sorting out rooms, kicked up a huge fuss because she didn’t get her way and was in a room with the two aforementioned girls and me (in the end she didn’t even go so wtf!). Now she was all “but I’m gonna feel awkward and I don’t want to share a room with them!” but you know what!?

I HAD A REALLY GREAT TIME!!!!!

They were hilarious and I loved every minute of that trip and they really boosted my confidence and made me feel like an equal and you know the other thing!?

If someone got upset (which happened once), we talked about it and it got sorted! Because that’s the only way that you can deal with fall outs because half the time it’s just a misunderstanding and I think that being with them opened my eyes a little and made me realise that X really needs to just grow up.

So basically I had a really great time and after feeling quite depressed and shitty and after everything I’ve been through, it was really nice to get away, spend time with people who I don’t normally hang around with and feel (for once) like I fitted in and belonged.

I just thought that I would share that with you. The fact that I am happy. Truly happy (I haven’t felt this way in a very long time and its fucking brilliant!)

IMG_0156 SEE THIS IS MY FACE AND I AM SMILING SO YOU SHOULD SMILE TOO!!!!

Goodbye!

Tabby

 

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Hey Guys

Yeah so I don’t know what to blog about… Well I do…… I have a list in my head and I have a blog post ready to come straight from my disorganised but perfectly functional brain but…… I can’t be bothered to actually type it out and I don’t have time and I’m just in one of those moods and to be perfectly honest, I’m only blogging so that I don’t feel bad about the fact that I haven’t blogged…..

It’s Monday…… I fucking hate mondays…..

It was my birthday on Thursday and my friends slept at mine on Friday and we had long discussions about who we shipped each other with….. Yeah I know……

Erm…….. Not a whole lot has happened that I remember…..

I have reached season 4 in Supernatural!!!!!!! OMFG CASTIEL…….. I UNDERSTAND GUYS I UNDERSTAND

Jesus Christ okay then….. *takes deep breaths to calm self down*…….

*doesn’t work……..dies*

 

 

 

 

Tabby will be back after resuscitation……. Please leave a message after the tone

 

 

*tone*

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I Have Something To Tell You

 

This is going to sound ridiculously girly and pathetic but I feel so happy I could burst and I can’t stop grinning. I promise you I am not normally like this and you probably won’t care but this is majorly important to me!!! I know you’re all dying for me to tell you this amazing news but let me build the tension a little longer ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

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………………………………. Okay that is long enough! My amazingly, fantastically wonderful news is that (drum roll please…)

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know all of you are groaning “This girl, I thought she was actually interesting but no, she is just like every other teenage girl, what next is she going to tell us she loves Justin Bieber!”
No I do not like Justin Bieber, I hate him (sorry to the girls who like him) and yes I have needs just like every other teenager and yes I am really happy that I have a boyfriend and yes I do like him very much and yes I do want to kiss him (Will, if you ever read this, take note!)

His name is Will, he is slightly taller than me (which is good) and he is quite good-looking, when he texts me he puts kisses and he doesn’t mind if I gossip about him with my friends!

Yes lads be jel I am no longer single!

Anyway the only problem is (girls I need your help on this) that he asked me out on Friday night by text and I said yes by text and I have only text him since he asked me out. I won’t see him until Monday and I am really nervous about what the freakin’ fuck I am gonna say to him! Girls please help me out (George, no you do not count as a girl).

Anyway that is my news and I thought it would be nice to keep you up to date with my life! Actually I have a bit more news… I think I have decided on what GCSE’s I am taking!!!

At the moment I am taking;
French
Geography
Music
Statistics and Further Maths
And my reserves are Media and Further Additional Science

(Out of my top 4, Will has 3 of the same subjects!!!)

Okay I am going now as EllytheWelly is coming round to my house and I need to go and gossip!

Bye
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