Excuse me whilst I curl up in a ball and continue my existential crisis…
Remember me? No? It’s okay, I don’t expect you to! I haven’t written here in a long, long time. I’m guessing you would like to know the reason (No? Well I’m gonna tell you anyway).
I have been struggling a lot lately with stress and have been having a really hard time. I have been in and out of doctors offices and hospitals because I currently have a problem with my back and I don’t know what’s happened. I am waiting for my MRI results at the moment and am also waiting on two physio referrals. My back problem has prevented me from swimming and as swimming was my way of releasing all my anger and all my bad emotions, I have had a hard time trying to deal with them. People who know me will tell you that I am a negative, angry and defensive person but people who really know me will tell you that I am difficult but I can be a nice person to be friends with (Elly?). With all these emotions and no way of getting rid of them I ended up being stressed about school, got mad really easily and I also ended up with really low self-esteem. Without my swimming, there wasn’t anything I could say I was really good at. I have been depressed and angry and have now been refered for Targeted Youth Support so I can get some help. (George, please keep this quiet!)
Anyway the main reason for my brief retirement from blogging is because, as a way of reducing the stress and pressure I felt , I stopped doing different things for brief periods of time. One of these was blogging. Basically, this was a science experiment and it was this, “If I take away things that stress or worry me, will I be more relaxed?” I stopped doing homework, blogging and I stopped practicing for my piano lesson. I didn’t tell anyone about this because it had to be entirely my decision. I have slowly started doing these things again but less often and I don’t care if things aren’t perfect anymore.
I am now going to re-introduce myself so here we go…
Hi. I am Tabby. I am 14. I have green eyes and light brown hair. I hate feet (unless they’re mine). I love chips. I have a Mum, Dad and sister. I also have a dog called Flo. The GCSE options I have picked are Geography, French, Music and Further Science. I love Harry Potter. My favourite movies are Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone, Chamber of Secrets, The Matrix, Wild Child and Skyfall. My favourite Youtubers are danisnotonfire, amazingphil, Bertiebertg, dicasp and emmablackery. I play ukulele and it is the coolest instrument ever.
So sorry for the long post (Not really). If you read this far please comment “I can read!” and if you didn’t read this far then you won’t be reading this so clearly you have the attention span of a gnat (good word “gnat”,(another good word is “bollocks”)I like it).
P.S. About that massive pile of awards. I have no fucking clue about what I’m meant to do but whatever it is, I will do it next time